| Venus de Milo
28 February 10
My picture for the day.
For those who are curious about how I produce them:
I have horrible performance anxiety, plus my left brain is a rubbish drawer.
My right brain, however, thinks drawing is the most fun in the world.
So I keep my left brain occupied by drawing with my... |
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| Making sense of it all
27 February 10
Things are getting clearer in my head. The issues I've struggled over for the last 7 months are beginning to sink through the swirling sandy water and rest on the bottom of my mind.
This is what I've realised: Luke didn't change. I'm the one that changed, and then got resentful... |
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| Therapy
26 February 10
I am so hating therapy at the moment. It's just horrible. So damn hard. This week I changed position again, so now I lie on the couch facing away from him, so I can't see his face. And it just sucks.
I can't charm him, make him laugh, try and... |
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| Families
23 February 10
I'm really sad about Steve de Gruchy, who is missing,presumed dead after a tubing accident in the Drakensberg. I keep thinking about his family, and how awful it must be to wait for him to be found, hoping that he'll be found alive, and having that hope slowly dashed bit... |
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| Changing energy
22 February 10
Last week I went to therapy, and instead of sitting on the sofa like a demure lady from Rondebosch, I did what my instinct was telling me to do, and lay on the couch, ala traditional therapy mode.
It was extraordinary. I put aside my brain and found my heart.... |
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| For Lolly
21 February 10
A picture for my friend, Lolly, who has run away to Pretoria to write her doctorate. I wish she would come home.
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| Drawings
20 February 10
Today I have been drawing. So here, for your delight, and for those of you who aren't on FaceBook, are my latest crehashins.
First up is Ethne,
who doesn't quite get the concept of Role Models.
Second you can see THe Muse, Prokrasta, who refuses to send me the next paragraph... |
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| Do unto others
19 February 10
So yesterday, pondering the great silence that followed my last blog posting, I was forced to come to my own conclusion. Next time, dear readers, do try not to be so tardy with your solutions to my dilemmas as it's awfully annoying...
So this is what popped into my mind,... |
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| fixing yourself
18 February 10
So my dilemma - the issue I am all oiled up and wrestling with - is this:
If someone hurts you /pushes your buttons/drives you crazy/ behaves in a way which gets under your skin so you just want to smack them, and you know that they had rubbish parenting, and... |
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| Energy leakages
17 February 10
My energy is leaking away on my emotional wrestling matches. Me and my inner life, we're all oiled up, ready to try and pin each other down.
I want to lie on my bed and sleep while my subconscious makes sense of what I'm feeling.
I went to see the... |
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| Colour coding
13 February 10
I used to be a hoarder. I used to buy stuff at the charity shops and pack it away for the day I needed it. Now I go to the charity shops, but I can't buy anything unless its utterly fantastic. I used to buy things for my friends too,... |
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| Teaching
09 February 10
This term I started teaching Creative writing again at St George's, one afternoon a week. I have around 8 kids, from Grade 7 to 10. (13 to 15).
I am so enjoying it. They are quirky and naughty, and chatty and full of nonsense, but they all really want to write,... |
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| Intimacy and catalysts
04 February 10
I'm trying to work out why some relationships are so satisfying, and some leave me feeling frustrated.
This is what I've figured out.
When I talk to someone, and I'm 100% in the conversation, and 100% engaged with them, and they're 100% in the conversation and 100%engaged with me, then... |
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| 2 February
02 February 10
Today's an important day. 20 years ago we parked on the side of the road near Victor Verster prison, waiting for Mandela to drive past. Most people were waiting on the Paarl road, but someone suggested he was coming out through the Wemmershoek Road, so we drove there and waited.... |
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